Haynerfide

Dear Diary-
Well, it’s over. I’m employed. Officially. Today was actually my second day. I’m not sure why I didn’t say something earlier. Actually, I know exactly why…but before I get to that…

The job I’ve taken isn’t the job I interviewed for at fox, but rather a DIFFERENT position there. The people are pretty righteous so far, I must say. I work, once again, in an office full of women. After all my time working in radio traffic, and now television traffic, I’ve only worked with ONE other guy. Leo, at Salem in LA. The rest have all been women. Moe, Andrea, and Kristi at Salem…Mayra, Jenna, Leticia, Bridge, and Sandy at Clear Channel…And now Carol, Heidi, and Macey at Sinclair. There’s more people to come. I’m assuming they, too, will all be lady folk. It’s just how it goes.

Okay, now why has it taken me so long to, you know, SAY SOMETHING? Easy, really. I’ve been REALLY fucking homesick the past week and a half. A week ago last Sunday every single fear doubt, and negative thought I had kept out of my mind prior to moving all hit me like a wave of shit. It’s not that I think I’m failing or that I WILL fail. I just miss my family, miss my friends, miss Stockton even. And I fear becoming a shut in come winter. I don’t think it’ll happen…but I can see how it could. And I’m essentially starting over from scratch…Which just scares the shit out of me… See, now I’m getting myself teed up again to freak out. So I’m going to cut this short. LJ folks, sorry I haven’t been commenting. I haven’t been doing much of ANYTHING. I’ll try to remedy that soon.

xoxo
Chris.